Where Reality Ends And I Begin

by Meiosis

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'Where Reality Ends And I Begin', the Meiosis album which bridges the 10 year gap since the last deals with the somber subject of manic depression from a true and honest perspective.

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released October 24, 2011

Words, music and everything else by Martin Thompson

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Formed in 1999 by Martin Thompson, Meiosis continue to release records and perform live. Pop music with and arty edge. Loads more information at www.MusicByMeiosis.com

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Track Name: The Sober I, Repulsed By The Drunk Me
Again again I know my friend,
I know the repulsiveness of life.
I count to ten and wait for when,
I can reach those impressive dizzy heights.
I can't begin to feel within,
I'm not so passive or shy.
I've said before you're not the bore,
So destructive but I try…

…I try, I try.

It's six o' clock and on the dot,
I'm feeling curious and awake.
I hit the sack and then attack,
Frightened all my sweethearts away.
I feel the power more by the hour,
Opportunities pass me by.
It must be great not to hate yourself,
Oh God, how I try…

…I try, I try.

The more, the more, the more I try… I cry.
Track Name: Maniac F.M.
Wake up and get off your head,
If you can get out of bed,
Choose your own personality,
The one without a sense of belonging,
Well I think you've forgotten.

Hold me closely just in case I fall,
Hold me tightly just in case I fall.

Phone up and drink up your beers,
It eradicates all of your fears,
Not in charge of your own destiny,
The one which had all been about belonging,
Well I think you've forgotten.

To hold me closely just in case I fall,
Hold me tightly just in case I fall.

C'est la vie that's the way it is,
No time to stop and think in,
Just time for drinking,
To love and hate,
To destiny so tempt on fate.

Oh the grass is green, the world's obscene,
Just for now and then every other chance.
No 'I' in team, so where've you been,
You stupid cow just give me one more chance.
Then the glancing blow was the crushing blow,
I wonder how I got away with what I said.
When I felt so low was the time to go,
And now this mania is bona fide dead.
Now this mania is bona fide dead.
Track Name: 1995
All we ever do,
All we'll ever do,
Is look back.
Is all we'll ever do.

This is now,
Hold on to the past,
Mystify,
Never coming back.

Oh we're feeling blue,
Wish I was feeling you.

This is now,
Hold on to the past,
Mystify,
Never coming back.
Track Name: This Time
Hey Einstein just say what you mean,
Don't beat around the bush we're all part of the team,
If you said, "do it". I think I blew it,
But in reality I've got my dignity.

It all blew up sooner or later,
Rather you than me, See you later alligator.
You're not on our side, you're not on our side,
You're not on our side, you're not on our side,

I'm human too how would you feel if it was you,
Dragging dead weight to Timbuktu.
And if this is revenge then revenge's my favourite song,
Now who's to say I'm wrong? Who's to say I'm wrong?

If you don't get it, I think you can bet it,
We'll creep up on you day after day.
And we're bringing you down (check),
In reality (check), Got my dignity (check), This is liberty (check).

When the time is right…
…We'll freeze it there.
The time that slips by…
…This time is mine.

Sometimes I feel like a balloon,
Floating across a starry sky,
And when my bubble is burst,
I begin to cry. I begin to cry.

When the time is right…
…We'll freeze it there.
The time that slips by…
…This time is mine.
Wake up city,
I don't breathe, I don't eat and I don't feel,
Why aren't you all like me?
Why aren't you all like me?

My heart doesn't beat,
My veins don't pulse,
Why do you all look so repulsed?
You could be just like me…
…you could be just like me…
…you could be just like me.
Track Name: On My Own
I was waiting for the missus to reply to a message,
And I don't like having to cross the bridge on my own,
If you want me I'll be sat in random bars,
Losing my soul.

Take a look inside there's none of my kind,
And there I was slumped in a chair on my own,
Get your coat you've pulled,
I don't like sleeping on my own.

It's time to go
Let's go! Let's go.
I can't survive on my own.

And now no-one can look me in the eye,
They can see my soul but they know it's in disguise,
Take the weight off your shoulders, put your feet up,
Get it all off your chest.

It's time to go.

And now go! Let's go.
I can't survive on my own.

I don't like to see you ripping the piss in front of me,
And I hate sharing my world with you,
Grow up get a car and a job,
Stop sponging off the state.

I've got to go.
Track Name: Open Arms For Broken Hearts
Open arms for broken hearts,
Embrace the wounded in fits and starts,
A broken mind is just the half of it,
You don't know how far to go with it.

Denounce your love, impress your friends,
How proudly you called an end,
All these lies when you get to the heart of it,
You just didn't know how far to go with it.

I hope some lies will trick your mind,
I hope in time your mind denies,
You're wrong, you're wrong but now you've gone,
You were all along… open my eyes.

I hope in time you see both sides,
You'll see in mine you cannot hide,
It bugs, it festers all the time,
You need the peace inside your mind.

Your mind, your mind, C'mon, c'mon,
You know you want to sing along,
Its open arms for broken hearts,
That's the way the spiral starts.

Open your ears engage your brain,
You are not playing that game,
When you know they are all the same
And you just don't want to be a part of it.

If somebody takes you under their wing,
Breaks you apart to build you back up again,
They'll take your head and iron out the creases,
But in time they're going to leave you in pieces.

I hope some lies will trick your mind,
I hope in time your mind denies,
You're wrong, you're wrong but now you've gone,
You were all along… open my eyes.

I hope in time you see both sides,
You'll see in mine you cannot hide,
It bugs, it festers all the time,
You need the peace inside your mind.

Your mind, your mind, C'mon, c'mon,
You know you want to sing along,
Its open arms for broken hearts,
That's the way the spiral starts.
Track Name: My Crazy Insomnia
And I'm hoping and I'm waiting and I'm feeling pretty silent,
Problems with awaking and my mind that keeps unwinding,
We're falling from a happy perch back to where I began my search,
People's names and people's quirks - all that I forget to nurture.
Holding up for a short time I don't know where to draw the line,
Come on friends it's OK - Martin lives for another day,
Well it feels like…

Depression. Depression. It feels like depression.

So I'm dealing with some empty cans, listening to my favourite bands,
Cooling down then heating up, chemical imbalance when I've had enough,
My brain runs high but my heart's on low, feeling numb from head to toe,
I know when to call it and we call it…

Depression. Depression. It feels like depression.
Depression. Depression. It feels like depression.
Track Name: Twinkle And I
How do you open when you can't be open?
I want to leave you now to rest,
I find this hard to address,
But I am going to try my best.

Well Jesus saved me but he never forgave me,
All my thoughts now run clear in my head,
I will never forget your smile,
Thank you for gracing my old bed.

Oh look what it's done to you,
Twinkle and I will be alright,
Oh look up to the sky,
You cry when it rains,
And when it rains it makes you cry.

You know you hurt us but you didn't deserve us,
I can only speak for you and I,
You may have been a wash up babes,
But you didn't deserve to die.

What would it have made me if you never betrayed me?
What would have become of my life?
I confess I loved you,
But you always lived a lie.
Oh look what it's done to you,
Twinkle and I will be alright,
Oh look up to the sky,
You cry when it rains,
And when it rains it makes you cry.
Track Name: Where Reality Ends And I Begin
Where reality ends and I begin,
What can I do?
What can I do for you my friend?
Where the sky ends and the sea begins,
Is that where we shine?
Is that where we draw the line?

What can I do for you my friend?
What can I fuck up for you today?
What can I do for you?

If Frank Sinatra really did have his way,
Then I don't believe he'd have been such a legend today,
What can I do? Where can I put my foot?
What can I do? Where do I put my foot in it?

What can I do for you my friend?
What can I fuck up for you today?
What can I do for you?

Oh Oh, Ah ah…
My big mouth.
Oh Oh, Ah ah…
My big mouth
Track Name: Blue Skies
I can see the point in dreaming,
When my curfew is when the street lights come on.
That's why my…

Blue sky's hanging down,
On my blue life.

Overloaded and my face is beaming,
But the end times come when the Sunday kicks in.
And then my…

Blue sky's hanging down,
On my blue life.

So if the curfew is at the point of dreaming,
Time to break the curfew and start believing,
In my…

Blue skies hanging down,
On my blue life.
Blue skies dragging down,
On my blue life.

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